im so alone. it's not that i don't have friends, it's just i don't trust myself to be around them when im not in the most optimal conditions.
i can't afford to lose distance, but i also can't afford to alienate anyone else in my life. i have no one. i'm so scared. i hope they stay patient with me. i try so hard.
nb for pity thread
when i have an opinion on what am i doing in the game, or whats my opinion on something in it i just speak out loud to myself as if i was a streamer and people were watching me
sorry, it makes me feel less alone and it helps me to arrange my ideas
When I was little I had this friend in my neighbourhood. His parents were pretty poor and my parents liked him, so he got to stay with us often. He didn't have any game systems and thus was pretty bad a gaming, so he preferred to watch me most of the time. Because of that he often got involved in the stories of the games I was playing. However I didn't want to wait for him to keep playing all the time.
This is why I started setting up little "re-caps" of things that happened. Like I would make extra save states on a 2nd memory card to show him boss fights or cool moments, which I would narrate for him. Our way parted in our teen years but I continued preparing these narrations in my head until my late 20s when I had learned that he had passed away.
Yeah, also hit me pretty hard when it happened. Life can be gay. He had a shitty childhood which led to a shitty adulthood. He never had a job or friends, as far as I know. He died because he was drunk and ran in front of a car, nobody knows if it was an accident or on purpose. Made me feel awful for not reaching out to him at some point.
>guy I knew dated super hot girl >she dumps him >he meets with buddies >they get super drunk >guy says he wants to go home >they want to walk with him >"nah, I'm good. I just need some time alone to think. It's not like I'm going to kill myself." >jumps off a bridge 2 hours or so later
The dudes who let him go were fricking devastated.
Okay, A) you don't leave drunk and/or sad friends alone BUT B) you also don't an hero in a way that traumatizes your friends just because your fricking high school crush dumped you.
1 year ago
Anonymous
my friends stopped me from killing myself twice but I think I'd rather have just gone through with it. the friendship suffered permanently and I think they'd be better off having grieved and forgotten about me already. oh well, maybe third time will be the charm one day.
1 year ago
Anonymous
>oh well, maybe third time will be the charm one day.
That, or you could get therapy and turn your life around and turn saving you into one of the biggest milestones in their lives.
1 year ago
Anonymous
That just sounds like being determined to be a horrible burden on other people and cause as much damage as possible. Get the frick over yourself and go see a therapist instead of whining on here for attention. If you hate your friends so much that's the way you talk about what they did for you you deserve to be eaten by a raccoon.
1 year ago
Anonymous
you're right, I think I'll take a walk outside tonight. thanks for the suggestion.
>guy I knew dated super hot girl >she dumps him >he meets with buddies >they get super drunk >guy says he wants to go home >they want to walk with him >"nah, I'm good. I just need some time alone to think. It's not like I'm going to kill myself." >jumps off a bridge 2 hours or so later
The dudes who let him go were fricking devastated.
>gf picked up that when I'm working I hum tunes to myself from Life is Strange >now she hums them too, sometimes sneaks in melodies from other vidya to see if I pick up on them
i don't have small victories
No.
i mean i do the legend of zelda "item obtained noise" when i find somthing i misplaced.
Yes
For me, it's the Pokemon evolution jingle.
I say "here's to feeling good all the time" whenever I start day drinking.
That's a good one.
of course my brother.
Alone in my small office at work, I speak to myself in Warcraft 3 voice lines as I read emails. I know its cringe
>New email Arrives
Something need doing? Yes Me Lord. Zug zug. Jobs Done.
>work work
is a standard between me and my gf.
im so alone. it's not that i don't have friends, it's just i don't trust myself to be around them when im not in the most optimal conditions.
i can't afford to lose distance, but i also can't afford to alienate anyone else in my life. i have no one. i'm so scared. i hope they stay patient with me. i try so hard.
nb for pity thread
Pretend my controller is a gun and when I listen to re mercenary music I pretend like I'm fighting zombies to the beat
when i have an opinion on what am i doing in the game, or whats my opinion on something in it i just speak out loud to myself as if i was a streamer and people were watching me
sorry, it makes me feel less alone and it helps me to arrange my ideas
When I was little I had this friend in my neighbourhood. His parents were pretty poor and my parents liked him, so he got to stay with us often. He didn't have any game systems and thus was pretty bad a gaming, so he preferred to watch me most of the time. Because of that he often got involved in the stories of the games I was playing. However I didn't want to wait for him to keep playing all the time.
This is why I started setting up little "re-caps" of things that happened. Like I would make extra save states on a 2nd memory card to show him boss fights or cool moments, which I would narrate for him. Our way parted in our teen years but I continued preparing these narrations in my head until my late 20s when I had learned that he had passed away.
frick you homosexual holy shit why post your story now im sad
Yeah, also hit me pretty hard when it happened. Life can be gay. He had a shitty childhood which led to a shitty adulthood. He never had a job or friends, as far as I know. He died because he was drunk and ran in front of a car, nobody knows if it was an accident or on purpose. Made me feel awful for not reaching out to him at some point.
>guy I knew dated super hot girl
>she dumps him
>he meets with buddies
>they get super drunk
>guy says he wants to go home
>they want to walk with him
>"nah, I'm good. I just need some time alone to think. It's not like I'm going to kill myself."
>jumps off a bridge 2 hours or so later
The dudes who let him go were fricking devastated.
>The dudes who let him go were fricking devastated.
i would too, that shit is depression inducing
Okay, A) you don't leave drunk and/or sad friends alone BUT B) you also don't an hero in a way that traumatizes your friends just because your fricking high school crush dumped you.
my friends stopped me from killing myself twice but I think I'd rather have just gone through with it. the friendship suffered permanently and I think they'd be better off having grieved and forgotten about me already. oh well, maybe third time will be the charm one day.
>oh well, maybe third time will be the charm one day.
That, or you could get therapy and turn your life around and turn saving you into one of the biggest milestones in their lives.
That just sounds like being determined to be a horrible burden on other people and cause as much damage as possible. Get the frick over yourself and go see a therapist instead of whining on here for attention. If you hate your friends so much that's the way you talk about what they did for you you deserve to be eaten by a raccoon.
you're right, I think I'll take a walk outside tonight. thanks for the suggestion.
The suggestion was therapy, twice.
>man laughing at baby chimpanzee in clown makeup.webm
good guy anon over here
Okay, enough with the sad shit.
I programmed a robot I made in uni to play the victory theme in midi whenever it scored a goal in a ball game
No I hum the real FF victory theme and not some one off.
for me
>gf picked up that when I'm working I hum tunes to myself from Life is Strange
>now she hums them too, sometimes sneaks in melodies from other vidya to see if I pick up on them
Like specifically the one from VII? Not a generic version of the series' vitory theme that VII's is just another version of?
All you humming people. I'm a whistler, humming is weird